November 2007
7 posts
“I am happy inside my snow globe :)”
Hollow....
My self destructive plan worked. He has moved on and I am hollow again. I don’t know what to do, I can’t cry. The tears won’t come and I don’t even know if I can love anything again. He ruined that for me, my ex, my first love. It is my fault. I told him to treat me like shit. It worked. I told him I could never love him, and I was right. He is with another girl, and I...
“My life, my heart, everything is silent…. I want to cry but the tears...”
Can there be love with hate??
I told him to treat me like shit. That it was the key to my heart. That a girl like me, with the things that have been done to me, meant that I didn’t respond to kindness. I respond to cruelty. It’s the sad fact of life that when someone you love kicks you when you are down that you begin to associate love with fear and hate. So I told him to treat me like shit, thinking that it...
Last Night
Last night was fun. Excellent even. I don’t mind Fix Bar… I don’t know what it is about my hair that makes guys pull it. They must like annoying me. So what if my hair is long?
“The days turn into nights and the nights turn into days…Time is a...”
October 2007
5 posts
The Veiw...
The view outside my window at work reminds me of the perspectives between old and new. I can see onto the roof of the property next door, which is tin and rusted like an old nail. The bricks are red and tumbling - the chimneys are nearly falling down. My favorite part is the far red brick wall which is covered in a climber tree of some sort. It perfectly molds to the shape of the building, and is...
“Every time I see him my heart skips forward, but then it skips back because I...”
– Me on love and crushes